My Lack of Perfection Is Not Ignorance
Over the last several months I have been pushed to my limits of tolerance for life and more than once, I’ve either outright abandoned or conveniently “forgot” all these wonderful spiritual principles I’ve learned over the years. Compassion? Out the window. Accepting what is? Not this time. Knowing that “this too shall pass”? Whatever.
A friend of mine has been trying to “help” me through these troubled time – despite the fact that I haven’t really asked her for help (somehow she mistook my honest response to “What’s wrong?” to be an open invite to become a nagging therapist on my back every day since).
She’s been feeding me all these lessons about the Law of Attraction, spirituality, and life principles – all of which I already know. I realized that she doesn’t realize how much I have actually studied. Certainly not everything, but I certainly have had exposure.
After reading a book (full of lessons that I already knew, but which served as a good reminder of what I had stepped away from temporarily) that she insisted that I read, I had an epiphany. I needed to call her.
“Please don’t confuse my lack of perfection with a lack of knowledge,” I said. “I know all the things you have been trying to tell me. None of this is new to me. What you have been witnessing is my lack of perfection in applying and living them.”
Being reminded of the principles yet again doesn’t do me any good. I’m in a different place now. I need to spend some time understanding the depth of what these principles really mean to me. Plus, I am getting experiences that are asking me to practice the principles. “Practice” being the key word.
The first time I apply a principle, it may not be perfect. I’ve had the training, but now I’m applying it. And that takes time.